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  • Listening to: Trance Master Classices rember mix The best of t
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  • Drinking: stroong mied Malibu and cola mix lots off!!
Weekend is here, and year sadly i haven´t been that active lately on update´s with art, first off, sorry about that i have thought had the lag of inspirations, and have been down with stress and depression for sevel years, and still not on top :/ big bummer really it is. as for now i´m drinking from time to time, i don´t have a urge to drink, so not a alcoholic or anything, just  drinking is releasing my mind from crap and hard times as well thought that i have every day that literately over throwing me completely, and thought getting all the help i can get, it´s not really working, as so i have been walking with my thought´s and pain for way way way to many years by now that the help i get has no effect, the only time that i´m of thought´s and worries and problems is when i get light headed from drinking, even so i still remember everything done, every thing said, and all. nothing is reacted to aggravated or mad, i really wish that i had the inspiration to art to day, like i had before the seriously work accident i had in 2012, i try to get up soon as possible but as it has been pointed out from many sides, i been to strong for to long on my own to many years pasted where i walked with deep shit problems and loneness.
i hope that one day in near future that i can come up with some art again, and not just stare at a blank page of paper
  • Listening to: Within Temptation - Pale
  • Reading: Lyrics
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  • Drinking: Cola






The world seems not the same
Though I know nothing has changed
It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind
I have to stand up to be stronger

[Chorus:]
I have to try
To break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can say goodbye
Have to make it right
Have to fight
'Cause I know in the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be all right

I know
I should realize
Time is precious
It is worthwhile
Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it'll be alright
Have to stand up to be stronger

[Chorus]

Oh, this night is too long
Have no strength to go on
No more pain I'm floating away

Through the mist I see the face
Of an angel, calls my name
I remember you're the reason I have to stay

[Chorus]

  • Listening to: Pretty Marids - little drops from heaven
  • Reading: Lyrics
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I was blinded by the darkness
wishing for a ray of light
and every day I felt so heartless

with the future not insight

You crossed my path when I was down
you brought me back on solid ground
you gave me strenght you changed my luck
my only friend when times were though

Little drops of heaven
my saving grace, sweet embrace
twentyfour/seven
let your love rain and eaze the pain
drops of heaven

I was in my darkest hour
when I felt an angels kiss
and all the heartache were devoured
in a thunderstorm of gliss

You picked me up you broke the ice
gave me a touch of paradise
standing tall, I'm shining through
and girl its all because of you

Little drops of heaven
my saving grace, sweet embrace
twentyfour/seven
let your love rain and eaze the pain
drops of heaven
my inspiration, love creation
twentyfour/seven
my heart and soul, internal glow
drops of heaven
oooh, yeeah.

[Solo]

Little drops of heaven
my saving grace, sweet embrace
twentyfour/seven
let your love rain and eaze the pain
drops of heaven
my inspiration, love creation
twentyfour/seven
my heart and soul, internal glow
drops of heaven
(drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
(little drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
(little drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
(little drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
(little drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
(little drops of heaven, drops of heaven)
  • Listening to: Wynardtage - Last Tears
  • Reading: doomsday
  • Watching: 2012
  • Playing: kill the life
  • Eating: posstion
  • Drinking: acid
so hows life going?


what life?, what fucking question is that at all????, i rather be dead than live in this fucked up human race world, punishment in being trapped in a humans body is the worst punishment there is , ignorance, greed, money fixated, self-centred smelly fucked up beings shooting and killing other spices to be dominating and act like gods, jesss .. world is going to crap and human are to blame for every fucking thing of it all, there is nothing called sickness, only the humans is sicking the world. may it all end at the 21/12-12  this earth is already fucked.
i joined a group on Facebook, and looke dup sevel youtube videos, right now my ought are going out to every one on here, and i did love if you would share this message with your friends and family

since all or most in here related them self with our dear beloved furry creatures, i thought this would be the right place to post this up.
I found a site that helps wolfs and Hybrids in CA.  it´s a none.profit Organization the makes sure the wolfs and Hybrids that can´t  live vild in nature, or is in urge need of food and medical care or whats worser than that.

www.wolfmountain.com/

is teh side, plz read and donate to it. i can´t say it to manny times,  we ones had 52 driffrint spices of wolfs in the world... now we have only 12 spices left, dont let the wolfs die, let them live to see a other day, i should not have to mention.. Balto witch i believe most know witch saved "Nome" Alaska back in 1913 that winter or atlest the kids there he was a Hybrid between a dog and wolf, and is a goos ambassador for the hybrid kind.

here is somthing to start with..

www.thepetitionsite.com/143/25…


That Hybris is to be put to sleep forever, curs of his a Hybrid, Sign under for him to live a other day and who knows he may end up as Balto one day..
todays Music is : D-ToX - Evil Inside

things are finally coming together, i gotten my medicine and got the laser treatment i needed apartment is almost red to move in to and further more a lot of money sent those last days so all is coming together at last
just noitched teh 5.300 pageviews damn thats nutz, but tanks guys!, you all rule!
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Things about me:
- umm i´m sick
- got blue eyes
-  i´m tale
-  i´m sleepy
- i´m finished this =3

01. Morning, afternoon, evening or night? :
Littel bit of all

02. Toothbrush; electronic or manual?
Manuel

03. If you had a cutie mark (mlp), what you it be?
..............................................................................................burning Phoenix

04. How many push-ups can you do? (Can be either knee or full-body)
...god thats long time ago i did that , but  80

05. What is your favorite song ATM?
...damn thats  hard one... umm i have mannay at teh momment but i gusses that it de be Decode -  Me you and pain

06. How old were you when you got drunk for the first tine?
umm >.>  1½ years

07. When was the last time you got drunk?
9 th of July 2011  

08. If you could have one wish, anything at all, what would you wish for?.
Live in a other world

09. Relationship status: Single or taken?
Single of curse...

10. Do you like spicy foods?
some times, they really give a farty belly and butt...

11. Do you have a favorite soft toy/plushie? What is it?
just a regular wolf pulsing i bought at a animal wolf park i visited last summer.
My cd to buy list :



DEATHSTARS - "TERMINATION BLISS EXTENDED"

DEATHSTARS - "NIGHT ELECTRIC NIGHT "GOLD EDITION"

DEATHSTARS - "SYNTHETIC GENERATION"

Turmion Kätilöt - "Perstechnique"

Turmion Kätilöt - "Pirun Nyrkki"

Turmion Kätilöt - "USCH!"

Turmion Kätilöt  -  Hoitovirhe

Nachtmahr - "maedchen in uniform"

Nachtmahr - "Alle Lust Will Ewigkeit"


and a little track speaking my mind so to speek     Grendel - Harsh Generation

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kz3Kk1…
My thoughts are at the momment on the past ones again, where i made just about 500 picthurs, the time where contackts whent around the world, and firneds made, well thats about 9 years ago by now, and almost all contackts are now ither lost or forgoten by now, every one gotten new things to watch for care for. looking around the gallerys revillings mostly the same storie, only a few oute of hundreds are still active.

i have not been active doing picthurs lately, my reason is to from from, hard on work on connstrucktion on a larger summerhouse, withis is in it´s 6 year of construcktion, just now its taken more seriusely than when bought the ground in 2004 as well work have been very shifting from none to alot and back breaking to none again, admit i have to do that my back -hips-nees no longer are the same, witch means most in pain, and oute of focus of being creative on picthurs as the same goes for photoing anything.

even so just the tought of not being viabel to fokus lately is desspressing sinc i miss hard to do picthurs again and keep web and gallerys updated.

~Killy
  • Listening to: Hypocrisy
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A cacoon binds my skin.
It wants to keep me alive.
I am the great messiah
Of the falling paradise.
Destroyed by my own creations
I cannot cope with life.
The truth you think
You know so well
It's just a big lie.

You live to fear
You lay yourself to rest.
Programmed to crawl
It's just a battle in hell.
We are the prayer
Can I break the spell.

We are the signs
That caged in the dirt
We are the plague
Spreading through the world.
We are the disease --
The virus eating away.
We are no one.
We're just living to die.

We're just a lie
We're just a fake.
Can't wait 'till
I'm finally dead.
Erase my numbers to know
To never return again.
Computerised
We're all neutralised
In a world that's controlled By machines.

You live to hate
'TilL someone press delete
The things we do
It's just a battle in hell
We are the dirt
Can I break these chains

We are the signs
That caged in the dirt
We are the plague
Spreading through the world.
We are the disease --
The virus eating away.
We are no one.
We're just living to die
  • Listening to: Mr.President - Up 'n away
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: hmmm nothing
  • Playing: Furcadia
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: Cult Shaker
still no scanner, so still no picthurs to upload, to make matters worser, i got the paint shop cd destryed by axident, a remaber, do not place a cd in the sun doing summer.!!!!
  • Listening to: Alpha Animal
  • Reading: plant books
  • Watching: personatly photos
  • Playing: Furcadia
  • Eating: candy
  • Drinking: Cola
as my Gallery shows then i've been much bizzy laitely, not only making my orkshop and adding  art in to it with black and royle red paint and more, but as well with draw'ing, yet the problem is no scanner at teh mommet still, so can't get to upload my new art work and color them so passtion is needed still...  witch stinks.
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  • Playing: Furcadia
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this is an wish oute to every one in an hope of an marry marry christmas and an happy new year

with an seasonly greeing from Darkness angel
One of the of thos days whwere i shout have been staying in bed. grabing roots and shaking over the soil from them with an grab machine all day again today, an aceddent happened when hitting an wrong think in the machine, witch did get it to flip over and land on it's side with me isnide, sidewindow smashed witch i laned on and wouth oute noitching geting an hole in teh back of my head, the time here is 5:10 PM and i just got home from teh Hospital after being swed back together in teh back of head, just right now i have an bad headace and i feel like trowing up, no work for me teh next cupel of days...

this is the mMashice i wos inside of www.jjm.dk/index.asp?page=view…
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  • Playing: Furcadia
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i just came across soming destyrbing, i can't beline that it's happning in thsi word,  never before i heard of about this problem, not in radio nither tv, Take action and help with geting ride of the Wolf Hunters, it's about time where the Hunter gets Hunted!  

this vedio will explane most i belive  action.defenders.org/site/Page…
  • Listening to: Steinkind - Deutschland brennt
  • Watching: Photos from Personly Gallery
  • Playing: none
  • Eating: candy
  • Drinking: none
it's just about an hole year and some mouthns sinc i've last uploaded somthing on here,  when the next time will be, will be hard to tell sinc nothing sems to go right in real life at this momment and for teh past year...s.   how ever i'll try stay more active around here.

Greetings.
  • Listening to: Steinkind - Deutschland brennt
  • Watching: Photos from Personly Gallery
  • Playing: ....rrrriiigghht
  • Eating: Marcipan
  • Drinking: Cola
Current Location | In Lands of Pure Hate & dislikeness, witchs means in my room you idiot ]
[ Mood |  pissed off ]
[ Music | Dimmu Borgir - Moonchild



Forgeting the Freedom by not having an girlfrind, is the worst thing an man ever can do. lucky i got that reminded last night drink-drivers arived at an party i wos at, i came at 7 PM at 1 Am i crawled home, drunk beone my mind, yet i rember the hole evning wery well, an cut with an nife, and deeply pissed mood, and anored by guy and girls in between 18 and 28 having troblems with understanding an shit in drunk stake gf leafes bf and same the other way, how ever, pain is nothing, but drinking on emty stomach is an bad idea, however i did that as well, todays sunny day has turned to an thundering evning and night Alone again and as always, it nice knowing that one is around who's called 'friends' realising years ago, that when my friends says " can't wait to see you!" or "I miss you so much!" it's fake and an lie, they promish to come and go of to some one els and explanes " no, i never promished you anything" or "ohh.. i forgot that" no.. that not how it works!.

this summer i'm expicthing Shabe to come to DK, to be more exsatly in next mouth, how ever, i know it's an fake play of an game, feelings and idea's never failled me when coming to unlock an other person. as an frined it easy to see if your 'frind' ie > pretending < to be an friend and then not be it!. the Toiught of Cannel this summer meeting with Sheba is on my mind at the momment and i'm consitering it deeply, i'm not really intrasse din meeting her again, teh feeling is just simpel not right anymore.

Anger is flooding my blood stream, i can hardly controle it how ever anymore, Trust is somthing i never can do and will do about anyone. I've seen,been there, done it, heard it, feelt it. no one teatch me how to trust, i allrady know and there is no trust in anyone, Trust is an simpel word, and an thing for an use in rl. how ever Online trust and truthfully ppl are hard to find, so fare i haven't meet an fuck head around here, they speek with me shourtly then quecklu log off and not log on again, Okey, okey, i got the point here, i'm not fun being around not as fun as others are, so i'm pushted at side, by every one in praguterly!.

finding this as somthing i made up just for to get attation? well, the ansawr is no, so simpel, and it's prove worthy, if i had frineds then i wouth get help from them , but if looking anywhere around here in my LJ/website/Gallerys, you don't really see me haning out with ppl. Wired you say?, Not really, think anout it, No friends!.

if you even borthered reading all of this i had to say for now... then wath? nothing?. I know i'm right if i say this with be over heard and placed as an 0 and no commenting, no, i don't tell you to comment on this nither anyone other of my Posts here, i know ehen i'm forgoten if not found worth of being an friend to anyone.

it's sad but what can i say, that just my place her ein life as an sucker.
when i think about the world, i see an shit place, with shity pll in it, bitching around and messing up other pples life, form teh root to teh wery leaf, killing life and make it fate away, blood running faster than wather in the rivers, hearts broken, cold,dark and lonely, not know how, where, when.

Look me in teh eyes, i'll break you, i shall show no more mercy to anyone, life to shurt to die for to shourt to trust ppl, let teh desice,drugs,alc spreed all over teh world faster then now, i'll break you mind if you dare say i'm your 'friend' i'll beat up your sorry ass, slaughter your body till nothing is left els then slides and sell it as fish food.